I broke my specs or rather they fell apart. I suppose you could say natural causes did them in… Just wondering about the plurality of specs or glasses. Is it because it’s made up of two similar parts that it’s a ‘they’ not a ‘it’? Oh well, I’m retrogressing and I’m no linguist. I’ll leave that to the Philip Ochiengs of this world.

I am half-blind without my glasses. Depth of field is quite shallow ie only a small area is in focus, the rest blurry and shutter speed must be at 30 and gets steadily worse with the reduction of light at night. Walking around in the dark one night, car headlights looked weird… Like a drunk shot… Yap our eyes function like a camera! Mine wouldn’t make it to Hollywood, sadly. So I set out to replace the lenses that had served me so well for three amazing years to at least make it back to Indie standards…

I haven’t found anything remotely like my former lenses. They are either too intrusive, standoffish or just plain ugly! I want specs that reflect me and will keep me company for years. So the search goes on for Specinderella… Tell her or rather them that the prince twins My Eyes are searching for them. They must however, be wedded by Tuesday next week latest. (The Queen has decreed!)

I am half-blind without my glasses. I was afraid, I must admit, that I wouldn’t be able to get by without my specs. I underestimated my eyes. I underestimated myself. The first day was surprisingly easier than I had anticipated. I made discoveries… As long as I didn’t strain to see past my depth of field unless I was crossing a road, (I cross at least eight busy roads a day! Challenging!) my eyes did a great job and I hardly felt uncomfortable. In fact, I’ve gotten quite comfortable and have only missed them in my few and far in between TV watching sessions so much so that I wear them in their broken state. (I make it work somehow!)

I am half-blind without my glasses. It has made me realize four things:

  • That I have always been half-blind- I have always been half-blind because I have underestimated myself. I however, have been getting by really well without my specs and this has made me trust my instincts where my eyes fall short. Strange, I feel like I know myself better. That my ‘handicap’ is an opportunity to overcome my real handicaps
  • That to see I have to be first blind- I didn’t know what I was missing in the world because I could see… A little philosophical but terribly important. Let me explain. We take for granted what we have when we have it. I suppose it’s a human flaw. When you can see, you take the beautiful around you as something that will always be there and sadly it becomes ‘ordinary’. Yet the ordinary is the most beautiful and after my ‘blindness’ set in, everything feels new. Beautiful.
  • That everyone is blind in some way- We all suffer from blindness. We miss out on opportunities because we don’t believe in ourselves or in others. We fail to see those that care for us and run to those who do not. We see the ugly and do not see the blessings all around us…
  • That blindness is comfortable. Ignorance is bliss. At the end of the day, I’m thankful for my short ‘blindness’. However, I want it to end. I need to get back to the fully-sighted because blindness can be so comfortable! My eyes are pretty and should not covered up, I’d rather not see some things etc… Excuses. Blindness lets you get away with irresponsibility. You are not culpable because you didn’t see. What you didn’t see, didn’t happen. But it did! Time to see again. Time to act on what I see especially with my renewed sense of sight!
Open your eyes. No, not the organs, your real eyes! There is so much to see!
mwendeMwende says
I broke my specs or rather they fell apart. I suppose you could say natural causes did them in... Just wondering about the plurality of specs or glasses. Is it because it's made up of two similar parts that it's a 'they' not a 'it'? Oh well, I'm retrogressing...